GOD WILL PROVIDE

Since I have been a Christian, or at least as long as I can remember in church, I have heard the phrase, "God will provide." It was usually in reference to some necessity a group of people, like say a church, or an individual had. I used to hear the stories about people who were on their last dollar, and at just the right moment, God provided. Stories about people who gave above their means to honor God, and not having enough to make it, and then, God provided. I heard these stories, and I thought to myself how awesome that God provided, but if I was honest, I was also thinking, "Glad that isn't me."

I have never been more vunerable in my life than I am now. I am 5 months and 4 days 16 hours from being married. I've been doing my best to save with what I make, as has my fiancee, and then today, My transmission went out and it's gonna cost me a cool $2000.00. I was just devestated. Ive been working so hard to save and to scronge, to have enough to pay rent, somewhere, anywhere, and this happens. It makes you want to just scream. I hear so many people tell me, these things happen, or "Welcome to adulthood." While there are many thoughts that go through my head, the biggest of these is on trust. 

Do I trust that "God will provide?" I find myself in a situation not unlike those people who spoke on how God blessed so many times in my life. I've always had mom and dad. I've always had every need met, and most wants fulfilled. Always. I thank God for that, but now, I find myself in need, with not a lot of opportunity for provision, or so it seems. 

I've not known what it's like to be in this kind of situation before, and it scares me, more than I can express. Yet, I know I serve a BIG BIG GOD, Jehovah Jireh, a God who CAN and WILL provide. I know this, but I find in all honesty that I'm not internalizing it. I'm working on it though. I ask you all for prayer, and want to challenge everyone, that if you aren't there now, you will be at some point, and its NEVER to early to place your trust in God. 

We all have doubts and concerns, whether you've been a christian a few months, or many years. At some point however, we truly have to walk by faith and Trust that GOD has us in His very capable hands, and he will provide! Pastor or not, I'm a man, wanting to be able to provide for his soon to be wife and family, and needing more faith than ever! 

I give thanks to God, who is STRONG in the midst of my weakness, and I thank Him for already paving a way I yet have not seen. I pray I have the faith to see it through! I pray you all have the faith to trust in God, and maybe...we can make it through this Journey we call life together!

God Bless,

Brian